Good evening, fellow bloggers and internet buddies! Hope everything is going well with you all! Things have gotten better since last I was online...headache is gone! Also, I jogged .81 miles last night. For those of you who don't know me very well, that is a huge accomplishment! I have never been able to run more than .25 miles, and doing that much makes me feel awesome!
So, I have decided that I want to participate in a 5k or a biathlon or triathlon or something of that sort. I am looking for one down in Illinois, since that is where I will be in a few weeks. I figure that since I have been spending so much time getting back into shape, I may as well put it to good use and train for something. Then I have a goal to work toward. I know that it sounds a bit on the crazy side, but I am trying to do new things, and I haven't done that sort of thing before. Plus, it kinda sounds like fun!
I called the child support agency earlier today and found out that B put in a written objection to the warrant that was going to be filed. Now riddle me this: how come he has the right to object when he hasn't paid support for two years, he hasn't held a job in two years, AND has already been to court about not paying and was given 90 days to start paying (which he hasn't done) or he would be thrown in jail. How exactly is that the child support agency at work? Jeez, if that's how they run the show, then I should apply for a job over there! I can sit on my butt and say niceities into the phone just as well as the next person, so that would be a perfect job for me! NOT! Grrrrrr, I just don't understand why he seems to get all the breaks!
As if that isn't bad enough, he and I have mediation tomorrow as well. I know already that we aren't going to get anywhere with things, so they may as well appoint the GAL and set up a court date for that. Because there is no way that I will agree to what he is proposing! I really don't want to go to mediation because I would rather not see him. And I want to talk to him even less. I don't trust him, I don't trust his motives, and frankly he makes me sick to my stomach.
Went to SCUBA tonight. By SCUBA I don't mean that I am taking diving lessons, either. River of Life church has Bible study on Wednesday nights, and it's called SCUBA because we dive deeper into the Word. Tonight we watched Collission, a debate between anti-theist Christopher Hitchens, and Reformed Presbyterian Pastor Douglas Wilson. It was very good. I thought that it was really interesting to see the atheist argument to things like truth and beauty. To say that truth is objective is kind of funny in a way. It basically means that my truth can be different to your truth, and it would still be truth. For instance, morals...say I think it's okay to hi-jack cars. Now morally we know that it is wrong, not to mention against the law, but since I think that it is okay, that means that I should not get thrown into jail for hi-jacking your car. Because truth is objective and when truth is objective, then so are morals. There are no absolutes in the world then.
On the way home, my dad (who had accompanied me to SCUBA) asked me: why does God make cancer cells that kill people? It really ticks me off when he asks me questions like that because I am not God (clearly, lol), so how can I answer for Him? So I asked my dad: do you believe in God? He said yes. Then I asked: do you trust Him? He said yes. So I said, then trust that He has a reason for everything, and sometimes we don't know or understand those reasons. He got mad at me then because I didn't answer his question. He can really push my buttons sometimes, ya know? So I asked him a question. I asked him: why does God make thunderstorms so beautiful? Why did God make the human body work so exquisitely? Why do you only ask questions that sound so doubtful of God yet never question His handiwork when it comes to the good stuff? So needless to say, the rest of the ride home was quite silent, which was fine with me. I know that I probably shouldn't be like that, but I tend to get offended when someone takes digs at my Heavenly Father. Especially when they aren't asking out of curiosity because they are searching, but rather to start an argument. God is good all the time, even when I can't see it or wrap my little head around it. I have to believe that, I have to know that He is in total control, or I would lose my mind...
Well peeps, I'm signing off for the night! But before I do, I would like to ask you to pray for me as I go to mediation tomorrow. Pray that God gives me strength and calms my nerves. Also pray that He shuts my mouth when it needs to be shut and opens it when it needs to be open. Thanks all! God Bless!
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